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Anxiety Art (2019)

A young artist in a dark dorm room processes anxiety by pulling it out of their mind and onto the page.

Artist Statement: A zero-budget project shot on iPhone, "Anxiety Art" is a short piece of one-person filmmaking about the power of artistic practice to externalize internal struggles. By taking the feeling of anxiety into my hands and bringing it into the light, I wordlessly suggest catharsis gained through creative expression.

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​AWARDS AND SCREENINGS

- WINNER of the Audience Choice Award at the "Through the Student Lens" Film Festival, United States, 2021
- WINNER of Berlin Flash Film Festival's "Super Short Smartphone" Contest,
 Germany, 2022
- Official Selection of FilmOneFest 2021
- Semifinalist of Sweden Film
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- Official Selection of TEDxCSU, United States, 2022

- Official Selection of Blackbird Film Festival, United States, 2022

Afterimages (2023)

I made this piece in collaboration with brilliant poet Mackenzie Duan, through Counterclock Literary Magazine's "Patchwork: Film x Poetry" nine-week interdisciplinary arts fellowship open to filmmakers and poets.

To achieve the animation, I mixed various physical, handcrafted mediums including oil pastels, window markers, graphite, charcoal, and watercolor paints, working frame-by-frame on both glass and paper and compositing elements together.

​AWARDS AND SCREENINGS
 

  • Premiere in Counterclock Literary Magazine's "Patchwork: Film x Poetry" Season 4 Showcase, United States, 2023

  • Featured and reviewed on "Moving Poems: The Best Poetry Videos on the Web," 2023 

  • OFFICIAL SELECTIONS:

    • Helios Sun Poetry Film Festival, México, 2023​

    • Aotearoa Poetry Film Festival, New Zealand, 2023

    • MicroActs 16 Artist Film ScreeningUnited Kingdom, 2023

Mary Remembering (2023)

A short animated documentary featuring archival recordings of my Volga-German Great-Great-Grandmother, Mary Frank Lind, in which she recalls key memories of childhood—her father's windmill, warm rains, wolf sightings, bone trading, and her passion for carpentry, which broke gender norms but was supported by her father.

With textured childlike sketches reminiscent of shadows or cave paintings in motion, I try in "Mary Remembering" to evoke traces of memory from a past that I never experienced, acknowledging layers of distance in the artifice of the reconstruction, yet also summoning a discovered sense of closeness to experiences over a century old. Using animation as a medium with its roots in the act of "bringing-alive," the film serves as an admiring tribute that merely scratches the surface of who my ancestor was, occupying the curious terrain between binaries such as past and present, absence and presence, self and other, and life and death.
 

Archival Sources

 

1) A two-hour long 1978 oral history interview with Dr. Kenneth Rock at Colorado State University, which is included as part of CSU's "Germans from Russia in Colorado" special collection.

Mary's audio recordings, in 4 parts 

 

2) A 45-minute long 1983 video interview conducted by Jean Bethke Elshtain (Mary's granddaughter)

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Special thanks to my Nanna, Bonnie Stegner, for providing photographs of her grandmother and written reflections about her feminism and gender nonconformity.

 

Thank you also to Professor Juan Juarez and my peers in the class of "Archive as Art" at Syracuse University for support in creating this project!

The World in Our Hands (2020)

A personal essay film about the nature of artistic creation, the process of social construction, and the responsibility that comes along with both. Created for FIL 690: The Essay Film, in partial fulfillment of a Film MFA at Syracuse University.

You & Eye (2020)

A personal, poetic examination of eye contact, social anxiety, and the nature of connection between self and other. Created for FIL 690: The Essay Film, in partial fulfillment of a Film MFA at Syracuse University.

Boy Story: Pixar, MeToo, and Misogynistic Storytelling (2019)

A feminist critique of gender representation in Toy Story (1995) as well as Pixar's larger filmography, in which I draw connections from depictions of women in animation to reports of an unsafe workplace culture for women at the animation studio. Through this video essay, I aim to explore the complex relationship between art and artist in the context of the #MeToo movement. 

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